Monday, 25 October 2010

Turning to a new page

Turning to a new page.

That's what I think this exact phase of my life is.

I have resigned from teaching as a part-time teacher.
There are some significant and insignificant reasons to that, but to conclude it. Just say.. I wasn't treated with the respect I want even though I have done what I can to help the school and their schedules.
To make my decision even firmer , I really can't picture the life that I want for myself by doing what I was doing. I think it's a call. It's a sign. I don't know. I just feel it deep in my gut, a realization.

Something that should be noted down very seriously,
I DO love all my students with all my heart. Even the dense and naughty ones. Cause they are basically still pure souls. Full of love and innocence. So dearly! <3

But life,
My life. Must go on to the direction where I want it to go.

--

Currently, I am starting on handling one of the branch of my parents' business. Handling? Supervising? Whatever you call the head of it. It's a Motorcycle Dealer. What brand? e-mail me for further info. hahaha! ^^''
I am planning to increase the sales number. I haven't figure out the way yet, but I think God do like me very much! The two days I started doing the work, I managed to sell some! ^^
I will make things work for me. Or I will make myself work for it.

This is not my first time though. When I was still in college I was already being nagged by Mum to get into it. But I never have the urge or the passion. When I was a kid I always thought that I would be an actress or a painter! I was more of a melancholic artistic kid. I think I am still having that now?
But surely life didn't lead me to that direction. That's cool with me. Inside me I always know whatever happen to me, meant to happen and I will be alright and even become better and better each days. One thing that I always keep in my mind is: Whenever I fall down or feel down, that's the moment I should believe in myself the most.

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So, somewhere along the way from college until now. I've work in several occupations. As a financial consultant, a Forex (Currency Trading) consultant, a part-time teacher, a marketer, I get myself into so many crazy and difficult situations. Yeah, I am 21 and believe it or not I've been through 1 hell of a hazardous ride! And that ride is the best lesson in my life so far.

I've once spent all my entire savings to redeem the consequences of the risks that I took. But it's all worth it. I feel myself being saved constantly by miracles and I have different perspective about life now.

And this couple of years after graduating High School and College, I've met many kind of people from many different kind of lifestyle and age. I feel very rewarded for having met these people, knew and listened to their life and story.

There are so many years ahead, and many more things to experience and embrace.

This decisions of shifting career is just one of them.
Another page of the life book. My own personal book.

Life is beautiful and Meaningful.
Embrace it. Live it.
Enjoy everything that's coming and happening.
Life is very rewarding, every problems, every blessings.

M.

Saturday, 23 October 2010

People Like Us by Robert Bly

There are more like us. All over the world
There are confused people, who can't remember
The name of their dog when they wake up, and people
Who love God but can't remember where

He was when they went to sleep. It's
All right. The world cleanses itself this way.
A wrong number occurs to you in the middle
Of the night, you dial it, it rings just in time

To save the house. And the second-story man
Gets the wrong address, where the insomniac lives,
And he's lonely, and they talk, and the thief
Goes back to college. Even in graduate school,

You can wander into the wrong classroom,
And hear great poems lovingly spoken
By the wrong professor. And you find your soul,
And greatness has a defender, and even in death you're safe.

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M.

Tuesday, 19 October 2010

Melissa Etheridge - I've Loved You Before

Listen and Download:
HERE.

Lyrics:

I think of how you know me,
no doubts no thinking twice.
When your smile can be so soothing,
a familiar paradise.
When there's no one else that makes me whole.
I have never needing more
I get this feeling I've loved you before

We were lovers in an army,
marching all for Rome.
side by side in battle,
did we bravely leave our home?
Did I hold you in my arms,
as you were taking your last breath?
Did shout to all the gods,
that I would love you beyond death?
I swear I've loved you before.

Did we hide in the dark ages,
from a vengeful god above?
Were our names too unfamiliar,
to ever speak of love?
Did I cling to every moment with you,
in every parting glance?
An accidental touch,
did we ever take the chance?
I know I've loved you before.

Have I wandered through the desert?
Have I looked and learned all the stars?
Have I rode the days and nights on rails,
to get back where you are?
And every time I foundered,
it's your eyes I know for sure.

When I think of how you know me,
no doubts no thinking twice.
When your smile can be so soothing,
a familiar paradise.
When there's no one else that makes me whole.
I never wanting more.
I get this feeling.
I know I've loved you before.

I know I've loved you before
I've loved you before

Video:


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This is my favorite song of all time :)

xoxo,
M.

Monday, 18 October 2010

Matchbox 20 - Unwell

Listen and Download:
HERE.

Lyrics:

All day starin' at the ceilin' makin' friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices tellin' me that I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for somethin'
Hold on, feelin' like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be, me

I'm talkin' to myself in public, dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talkin' about me
I can hear them whisper, and it makes me think
There must be somethin' wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinkin', somehow I've lost my mind

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talkin' in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're takin' me away

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be yeah, how I used to be

How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be, how I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

Video:
HERE.

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I'm not crazy :)

xoxo,
M.

Friday, 15 October 2010

A Sweet Salt

A man met a girl at a party. The girl was looking incredibly beautiful. Many men was trying to chase the girl. The man on the contrary, appeared simple and no one was watching him. But, when the party was over, he dared himself to invite the girl to look for some warm drinks. The girl somewhat surprised, but because of the man's modesty, she nodded.

They both end up sitting in a coffee shop. The man was so nervous, his hands often fluttered and he did not say anything. The girl felt the tension and started to feel uncomfortable. She then said, "Wouldn't it be better if we go home?" However, all of a sudden the man talk, for the first time, as he was waving to the waiter, "Could I have a salt for my coffee?"

Everyone who heard it, looked strangely at him. The man, clearly his face turned red, but still, he put the salt in his coffee, and quietly, drink it.
The girl curiously asked, "How could you have a hobby like this?"
The man replied, "When I was little, I live in coastal areas near the sea. I loved playing in the sea, I could feel the water, salty and it bit a little, just like this salty coffee. And every time I have the salty coffee, I always remember my childhood: remember my hometown, I miss my hometown, I miss my parents who still live there. "
As soon as the last sentence is over, the man's eyes began to glaze, and the girl deeply touched by the sincere felt comments by the man in her presence. The girl thought, if a man can tell that he misses his hometown, surely the man who loves his home, his house and will have responsibility towards his home. Then the girl also started talking, telling stories about her far away hometown, her childhood, and her family.

Rigid atmosphere instantly changed into a warm conversation, and so became a beautiful beginning in their story. They ended up dating. She found that the man was a man who meets all her demands: she was very attentive, good-hearted, warm, very concerned.... really a very good person. Ah, she almost lost a guy like that. Thank God for the salty coffee.

Then the story was just like every love story, the princess married the prince and they lived happily ever after. And every time the princess made a coffee for the prince, she always put salt in it, not sugar, because she knew that's what her husband liked.

After 40 years, he passed away, left a letter. With shaking hands, the wife read the letter:

"My dearest, please forgive me, forgive that my whole life with you is a lie. Although it was only one single lie that I'd ever told ... about the salty coffee.
"Remember when we first went out together? I was so nervous at that time. Actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was hard for me to change it because you would definitely felt more uncomfortable. So I just went ahead. I never thought that it could be the start of our communication! The beginning of our intimacy and the eyes of our love. I tried to tell you the truth all along, to tell you, but I was too scared. Since I have promised not to lie, even once.
"Now I am dying. I'm not afraid of anything anymore, so I am telling you the truth: I do not like the salty coffee, it's really weird and it taste really bad. But I always have salty coffee in my life since I've met you, and I never once feel sorry for everything I do for you. Having you is the greatest happiness in my life. If I could live for the second time, I still want to meet you again and have you in my life, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again. "

Tears of the wife actually makes the letter wet. Later today, if there is someone who asks her, what it feels like drinking coffee with salt? The girl would answer, "sweet," with a smile, and two teardrop on the cheek.

-End-

Disclaimer:
Not mine. Translated from Indonesian's chain letters.

M.

Tuesday, 12 October 2010

Marcell - Firasat

Listen and Download:
HERE.

Lyric:

Kemarin kulihat awan membentuk wajahmu
desah angin meniupkan namamu
tubuhku terpaku

semalam bulan sabit melengkungkan senyummu
tabur bintang serupa kilau auramu
aku pun sadari, ku segera berlari

reff:cepat pulang
cepat kembali, jangan pergi lagi
firasatku ingin kau tuk cepat pulang
cepat kembali, jangan pergi lagi

alirnya bagai sungai yang mendamba samudera
ku tahu pasti kemanakan ku bermuara
semoga ada waktu, sayangku

ku percaya alam pun berbahasa
ada makna di balik semua pertanda
firasat ini rasa rindukah atau kah hanya bayang
aku tak peduli, ku terus berlari

repeat reff

dan lihatlah sayang
hujan terus membasahi
seolah turun air mata

repeat reff

English Translation:

Yesterday I saw the clouds forming your face
The sigh of the wind blows your name
my body become frozen

Last night's crescent bended your smile
The sprinkler of stars sparkled like your aura
I then realized, I immediately ran

reff:
Quicky return
Quickly return, do not go anymore
My foreboding wants you to return home quickly
Quickly return, do not go anymore

The flow is like a river which longing for the ocean
I know for sure where I am going to go
Hopefully there is time, my dear

I believe it's nature's language
There is meaning behind all the signs
This sense of foreboding is it yearning or whether only a shadow
I do not care, I kept running

repeat reff

and behold dear
the rain keeps soaking
seemed like tearing down

repeat reff

Video:


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Remember this song after reading Rectoverso.
Dewi Lestari the writer of that book also did a cover for this Marcell's song.
Here is the link for her version of "Firasat" (Dewi Lestari).

M.

Sunday, 10 October 2010

Interesting Weekend

Saturdays are indeed always interesting!



This last Saturday was such a day, around 2.30 PM I was going to a finale of a Modeling Competition held by Lions Club Fine Arts at 26th floor The View, Swiss-bel Hotel. It's more extravagant than the competition I attended at J.W.Marriott last time.



I was there 'cause one of the sponsor and the committee member of the occasion was Ms Maggie Wong. A good friend. She had been inviting me and some friends to come along to watch it. Another reason for me to go there was to give support to an acquaintance, Mr Steven Leonard :)

I highly appreciate his confidence and style. He won the third place in the competition! Congratulations for him.



My other friends that went to the show were Dolly and Jos. We've got two aunties sitting along side us. It happened that one of the auntie's daughter was one of the finalist. But her daughter got eliminated quite quickly. The judges thought that she was too young for the adult poses. Can't disagree with them after thinking of their qualifications -,-''



The Judges were:

- Ms. Felicia Luhur (I forget her bio >..< href="http://sofyankwan.com/">Sofyan Kwan (Medan's Top Fashion Designer)

- Ms. Raline Shah (Model and Miss Indonesia 2008)

- Mr. Darwis Taniwan (Aplaus' Chief Editor)



The show was nicely organized!



But...

Yesss,, a complaint!

I don't know what's wrong with the hotel lifts! They're so sloooow! (turtle-ish slow) There are 3 guest lifts, but only 1 went up and down the 26th floor at a 15 minutes interval! *died



I was waiting for 30 minutes and there were still many other guest who wanted to go down. At last, I took the freight lift! Which was faster --'



Reached home around 8 and enjoyed a nice dinner cooked by my Mama <3 href="http://www.facebook.com/pages/Medan-Indonesia/Entrance/102968813354"> Entrance the Music Temple.



We were joining my Bro and his friends. Met some friends too. I enjoyed the music but it was kinda awkward to dance too expressively. hahahah! I'm such a shy person when it comes to people that I don't know very well, let alone dancing around! lol.



After a good time listening to the music, we left around 2.



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Hope everyone had an interesting ones too!

Cheers!

M.

Friday, 8 October 2010

Hey You

Do you notice that?

The tenderness of my soul
The endless smile on my lips when you are around

Sometimes it is amusing how my mind keep thinking about you
I don't even think of myself this much

You are such a perfect creation of God
Your kind heart
Your smile in particular
It makes me feel all warm and content.

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Dedicated to everyone who falls in love..
Life is a celebration
Be happy :)

xoxo,
M.

Beautiful Sadness

Hey Stranger

Nowadays I look at you
I feel a strange hollow in my heart.

You used to treat me like I am the center of your universe.
You used to treat me like I am such a beautiful creation.

After all that you have done, you have broken my heart.

There's nothing we can do about that now.
There's nothing I can do to change that.

Now, it feels like we are stranger to each other.
It feels like I am nothing to you.

I understand you reasons very clearly.

It's just...
Should we forget everything that we've been through?

All those times we've spent accompanying each other.
All those significant and insignificant times.
Should we throw all of those memories away?

It's so stupid to even questions that.
It's such wonderful memories, such a shame to forget all of that.

I don't want anything from you.
I don't want to go back to the past.

I know in your heart I'm not in there anymore.
As you are slowly fading in mine as well.

I hope in time
One day
You will realize that I've once really fell for you
as you had wanted me to.

Such Beautiful Memories
Love sometimes is such a
Beautiful Sadness.

-End-

Dedicated to those who has loved but instead got their heart broken in return.
And yet still believe in love..
Celebrate your life :)

xoxo,
M.

Friday, 1 October 2010

My Chemical Romance - I Don't Love You

Listen and Download:
HERE.

Lyrics:

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still a good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out while you can

When you go would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"?

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you down and out
It's where you oughta stay

Well after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up while you can, whoa whoa

When you go would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"?
Well come on, come on!

When you go would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you like I loved you yesterday"?

I don't love you like I loved you yesterday
I don't love you like I loved you yesterday

Video:


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xoxo,
M.

If Facebook Existed Years Ago.



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Disclaimer:
I don't know who created this. For sure it's not me. They belong to whoever created them.
I only share this because it's hilarious!
hahaha!

Enjoy.

xoxo,
M.
 
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