Last one for Now

I have admired you for sometimes now..

You have the most gorgeous smile I've ever set my eyes on.
You are independent.
You are strong.

You are everything I adore..

Even though so..
I have to set my feet on this reality.
Live my whole life for something real.

You are in relationship...

Seeing your hands joining together.
Seeing your happiness when you are together.
Seeing your eyes filled with joy around her.

My heart keep breaking..
But you mustn't know.
She mustn't know.

I have to smile.
I have to be happy.

I truly don't enjoy the sight..
But I need to remind myself with this painful interaction of love you share..

I keep this pain in order to see you smile.
That's all I think of.

Something real, u will figure it out in future time..
You will find out the truth... Truth never lies..

Right now,
You are living in this lie.
Lie that faked like real.
Your so blind.
Blinded by all the joyful things, the tasty words.

I feel sad for your blindness.

I don't know whether you know the things that she has done..
All the cheating and the lies..

I don't know..
Perhaps you love her so much you ignore it.
Perhaps you love her so much you pretend your ignorance.

Or perhaps..

Your really blind from it all...

Either way..
Your sad.. Your a sad sad hopeless romantic.

Honestly.. When I think about you.
I almost weep..

But for now you don't know yet.. and it doesn't matter, does it?

If you are happy with this kind of situation..
I am happy for you too..
That's all I want.

I can't whisper the truth..
What's the use of that when you are still living in this crazy paradise.
You won't believe a word I say anyway.

So, there's really nothing I can do.
Other than little pieces of my heart is missing everyday.

One day when you can open your eyes.

And you are still with her.
Maybe at that time she changed or you accepted her.
I have promise myself that I am still going to be happy for you.

But when you choose to leave her.. Or more ironic. She left you.

I'll be there.
As a friend..
As someone who try to cheer you..
As someone who will try to be the best for you...

But at that time if you don't see me fit.

The final piece of my heart for you would hesitantly disappear.
Life will go on as it always is.

All I want is for you to be happy.
Nothing more.

Cause you..
Are at best when you smile and happy.

-End-



M.