Lil' Note From Me

Yesterday was gone and so were you
If u think I'm not good enough
Please, leave me...
If u can't stand to look at my bad side,
That's mean u and I were not supposed to be friends...
I don't care anymore...
I still got lots of story in front of me
Life goes on
U understand what u said to me
And I UNDERSTAND everything that I write just now....
Sorry for wasting your time
But It's not my fault...
If u ever read this,
believe me I'll always be there whenever u need me,
I do love u my "friends".

-End-

M.

I've been smiling all day. It's crazy! >.<'

Just Something before a Glass of Morning Coffee

I am not as good as i wanted to be.
I am not as tall as i wanted to be.
I am not as patient as i wanted to be.
I am not as rich yet as i wanted to be.
But i know that god has created human being for a purpose.

So...
I want to be thankful, i am thankful that i even exist.
I am thankful that i am born with a perfect anatomy.
I have the same opportunity with the rest of the people who live in this world to become someone.
I am thankful for everything that has ever happened to me.
May it be a good thing or a bad thing, it has teaches me that everything happens for a reason.

Sometimes when u are feeling rather safe and content, something u dun expect could happen.
And sometimes... when u are feeling so bad, something good might happen to cheer you up.

I think life is like that, everything is at a balance.
Yin and yang.
Black and White.
Up and Down.

That is why, my favorite quotations got something to do with it...
My Mom and Dad ever said to me,
"It's good to look up, but don't forget to look down as well."

It means that we should not just adore someone who are wealthy and living large, then look down or make enemy on people who are just living a casual life or poor. These people might be wealthy and living large as well one day, and they will remember how u make them feel on the bad days.

And don't ever get caught up on yourself, there are clouds above cloud.
There are skies above sky.

Life is like the rolling wheel, sometimes you're up and sometimes you're down.
U might feel very superior today, but tomorrow who knows?
We hope everyone is always good.
But there's no guarantee. Never a guarantee.
Nothing is set on stone.
Maybe perhaps.. death.
So when u are at the top... prepare for the down time.
And when you're down, always race yourself to the top!

Anyway, i just want to be grateful to God.
For what I already have and what I will have.

*scratch head

I guess I really need that Cappuccino.

:)

M.

Tuhan menciptakan Anda
sebagai jiwa yang dikasihi-Nya,
yang tidak direncanakan untuk
dinistai oleh orang lain atas nama cinta.

...Jika dia mencintai Anda,
dia tak akan mampu menyakiti Anda,
atau merendahkan Anda,
dan tidak akan mengkhianati Anda
dan mengatakan bahwa Anda
adalah sebab dari pengkhianatannya.

Perpisahan dari orang seperti itu
adalah perpisahan emas.

The Golden Goodbye

Mario Teguh


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Janganlah kau letihkan dirimu
dengan perburuan tak pasti untuk
menemukan cinta yang sempurna.

Kesadaran mu yang dimabukkan
......oleh lamunan cinta itu, akan semakin
terasing dari kenyataan hidup.

Ketahuilah …

Keindahan cinta hanya hinggap di hatimu,
jika engkau mencintai dia yang mencintaimu.

Janganlah berletih-hati
mencari yang terbaik untuk kau cintai.

Jadilah yang terbaik bagi yang mencintaimu.

Mario Teguh


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Hatimu akan menyusut dan lemah
jika semua tenaga hatimu
hanya kau tujukan untuk
mencintai agar engkau dicintai.

...Mencintai agar engkau
mendapatkan cintanya,
adalah bab berulang dalam
drama percintaan anak manusia,
dan itu cerita usang nan padat
berisi kecewa dan tangis.

Tapi,

Jika engkau mencintai
hanya karena kerinduan hatimu
untuk menjadi pengindah
kehidupan jiwa lain,
engkau disebut hampir malaikat.

Mario Teguh


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Some words from inspiring Man.

M.

Mommy

Didalam Realita kehidupanmu

Minimal ada seorang perempuan yg sangat PEDULI dengan kamu.. Pasti..!
Terlepas kamu setuju atau tidak, terima atau tidak, Perempuan ini ada..!
Dan ia adalah satu satunya manusia di dunia ini yg mengizinkan rahimnya kamu tempati free of charge selama 9 bln 10 hari.
Yg Siap menahan sakit demi kehadiranmu disini sekalipun nyawanya yang menjadi taruhan.

Dalam membesarkanmu ia melewati hari-hari yg tidak gampang..

Sering ia tidak tidur karena kamu sakit..,

dlm kebingungan ia hanya menangis dan berdoa karena panasmu yg tidak reda,

atau kamu tdk buang kotoran.

Ia tidak jijik dgn kotoranmu berselemak dibadannya bahkan ia tertawa lepas saat semua itu terjadi.

Tahun-tahun berganti..

Kini kamu sudah Dewasa.

Kamu sudah bisa ke Dokter kalau kamu sakit..

Dan status kamu pun kini sdh berubah..

Kamu Tidak butuh perempuan itu lagi.

Sekarang perempuan itu sudah tua.. lamban,

suka dgn cerita lama yg membosankan,

nasehatnyapun selalu itu-itu saja..

Belum lagi bau badannya yg sering diprotes oleh: pacarmu/suami atau istrimu/anak-anakmu.

Komunikasi kalian Payah.. Susah..!

Hai sahabat

Anda benar.. Wanita tua ini sering membosankan dan tak nyambung.....
Tapi coba berdiamlah beberapa menit dlm hening..

Sejelek apapun dia.., org lain boleh Tidak suka dia.

Tapi KAMU Tak Boleh.. Sebab ia adalah IBUmu

Di hari tuanya yg tak lama lagi..,

Bukan HARTAmu yg ia harapkan,

Ia TIDAK butuh apapun dari kamu.

Ia hanya Takut.. Kehilangan kamu..

Takut kamu tdk peduli dia lagi..

Karena ia begitu mencintaimu. <3

Ia sdh Bahagia kalau kamu datang n bertanya "Apa kabar..?"

Dan tanganmu mau mengelus dia.

Sahabat, maafkan dia kalau Ia pernah melakukan hal yg mengecewakan kamu..

Percayalah Ia pantas untuk kau cintai.

Kawan..

Waktu perempuan tua itu tidak banyak lagi..

Dengarkanlah ini:

Jangan Lagi Bersuara Keras Padanya..

Dalam keadaan apapun..

Itu akan sangat melukainya.

***♥***

Selamat Hari IBU.
Happy Mother's Day.

-End-


Disclaimer: It's not mine. But it's lovely. Respect and Love to all Mommies out there! Especially my Mum :) I Love You.

M.

Cara-cara membahagiakan

Untuk membuat wanita bahagia,
seorang lelaki HANYA harus bisa menjadi :
1. Teman
2. Pendamping
3. Kekasih
4. Kakak
5. Ayah
6. Tukang listrik
7. Tukang kayu
8. Tukang ledeng
9. Mekanik
10. Seksolog
11. Ginekolog
12. Psikolog
13. Pembasmi hama
14. Psikiater
15. Penyembuh
16. Pendengar yg baik
17. Ayah yg baik
18. Sangat bersih
19. Simpatik
20. Atletik
21. Hangat
22. Penuh pengertian
23. Pintar
24. Lucu
25. kreatif
26. lembut
27. Kuat
28. Pengertian
29. Toleran
30. Ambisius
31. Berkemampuan
32. Berani
33. Berkemauan kuat
34. Tulus
35. Dapat diandalkan
36. Berambisi
37. Penuh kasih sayang

JANGAN LUPA UNTUK :
38. Memberikan pujian secara rutin
39. Mengantarkan shoping
40. Berkata jujur
41. Sangat kaya
42. Dermawan
43. Tidak membuat stres
44. Tidak melihat wanita lain

DAN PADA SAAT YG SAMA, LELAKI HARUS :
45. Memberikan banyak perhatian kepadanya, tp tanpa mengharapkan sedikit perhatian darinya
46. Memberikan banyak waktu untuknya, terutama waktu untuknya sendiri
47. Memberikan banyak ruang untuknya, tidak pernah menghawatirkan kemana ia pergi

SANGAT PENTING :
48. Jangan pernah lupa :
* hari ulang tahun
* hari jadi
* perjanjian yg ia buat.

TRUS BAGAIMANA CARA MEMBUAT PRIA BAHAGIA???

"Telanjang!" Itu saja sudah cukup..

dasar wanita...tau saja kelemahan pria!

LOL. just for fun!

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Disclaimer: not mine. non. nein!

M.

My Parents are the best!

I think my parents are the best in the whole world u know.

Mama gua coba, beliau hebat banget yah. Pande ngomong. Masaknya enak. Tegas. Galak.
Walaupun dia nggak secantik Catherine. Zeta-Jones atau Audrey Hepburn tapi she's the most beautiful woman for me.
Especially when she's working kan or lagi ngitung-ngitung gitu. Her spirit yang berapi-api makes her shine gitu in my eyes. I love her very much. Gua sih suka manja-manja gitu sama mama gua. Uda gede kek bayi gajah gini kalo uda deket mama rasanya masih seperti waktu sd dulu. Hahah! She's not like usual housewife or business woman deh, she's my super mom!

Kalo bokap sih sedikit beda yah sama mama. Papa gua diem and wise gitu. Tapi kalo marah, serem. Gua suka sih komplain-komplain and cerita- cerita ke bokap kan, ntar dia suka cerita balik and kasih masukan. Asik banget serasa duduk di warkop and seperti nya dianggap selevel. Love him!
Orang bokap sih kalo dia nyuruh ngapain gitu kan, baru deh dia mirip sama mama. Harus langsung diselesaiin gitu. Dia gak suka liat orang ngeleha-ngeleha.

Dua-dua sih bagi gua sosok yang keren banget yah. I mean, I learned a lot from them. Then juga the stories and advice they told me bener-bener cool banget.

Mereka nggak pernah kek ngekang gua ampe kek mana gitu. Tapi mereka kasih gua warning tentunya. Batasan-batasan gitu. And I really respect it. They make me feel indirectly responsible for myself and my actions. They really are the best!

Dear God, thanks for giving me such great parents. I'd never be grateful enough.


-M.

Panti Pijat akhirnya setelah sekian lama

Daily Rants!

Gua ketemu sama Mochi tadi.

Di tempat reflexi. O yeah! *dance

Kebetulan dia nya uda lama mau pergi pijit-pijit, and gua juga sih mau aja kalo di ajakin relax.

Sebenarnya hampir batal karena janjinya jam 5an, gua baru bisa kesana nya setelah toko gua tutup dan gua nya mandi sebentar.
Gua nggak langsung kesana lha! Nggak mau kelihatan terlalu buru-buru kan pergi ke panti pijat. Malu. Haha.
Dan emang biasanya gua suka ngaret. Males nunggu orang. Tapi suka kalo di tungguin. Haha.
Sekitar jam 6an deh baru sampai ke sana.

Si Mochi uda kesana dari tadi dan sudah mulai body message nya dari jam setengah 6.

So, when I arrived there gua cuman reflexi kaki gitu deh akhirnya. Hoping that when I finished it'd be on the same time as Mochi, jadi bisa dinner bareng sebelum balik. Bisa kongkow2 gitu.

Tempat reflexi yang ini baru buka. Ada di daerah pusat kota. Tempatnya asik, mirip di bali-bali gitu deh. Bagian pijat kaki nya nyaman, lampunya remang-remang mirip lampu kamar tidur tapi di satu ruangan besar itu, banyak tempat duduk sandaran gede mirip semi-sofa gitu and dipisahin tirai-tirai tipis bernuansa negara tirai bambu.

Yang mijitin gua pegawai nya ramah amet! Jadi segen awalnya dia megang-megang kaki gua, bersiin and di lap. Kek gimana gitu yah. Treated like royalty. Hehehe.. Waktu mulai di pijit, wah.. Enak. Hampir ketiduran malah, rasa segen nya hilang. Jadi nggak tau malu terakhir minta agak pelan atau agak kencang. Maklum kaki gua sensitif kalo di pijit terlalu kuat.

Pas kaki gua baru sebelah aja yang sudah beres di pijit, si Mochi tiba-tiba muncul. Dia nyentuh pipi gua gitu dari belakang. Mau ngejutin mungkin yah. Gua nya malah udah mau bobok.

"Heyyy", katanya with that soft voice. Then I looked up dengan muka ngantuk gitu.

It happens kan rupanya dia harus balik duluan ada acara apa gitu bareng keluarga. Yah, gua kecewa deh. Padahal sambil di pijit tadi uda mikirin seafood terus. Kepiting rebus atau udang goreng mentega.

Ya sudah, terakhir gua balik sendiri dhe.
Makan masakan nyokap di rumah.
Haha. As usual, masakan Mama punya cita rasa tersendiri. Tamboh terusss!

Seafood nya lain kali dah. Kalo di Medan mah mudah, tinggal mau pergi aja uda banyak tempat makan seafood yang enak.

Ah,, bye-bye for now Seafood.
We'll get in touch sooner or later!
*evil laugh


-M.

Meeting 2 Writers this time

Ketemu si penulis hari ini!

Oh! 2 orang penulis malah ^^

Wenxi and Ms. Linda.

Lol!

Lucu yah. Kota Medan gitu lebar tapi bisa ketemu dengan individu-individu yang saling bertemu karena tulisan.

Sayang cuman bisa bertemu 2 beliau ini selama hampir 2 jam saja. Karena hari ini hari libur nasional and gua sudah janji orang rumah gua nggak lama-lama balik nya.

Wenxi seperti biasa, fresh and sharp. Ms. Linda baru pertama kali bertemu beliau jadi saya nggak banyak comment. Hahah! Orang nya seems smart and interesting.

We talk about writing gitu. Beda-beda yah cara nulis setiap orang.

Gua sempat nunjukin tulisan amatir gua "Rendezvous" ke mereka.

Haha,, malu deh tapi gua butuh masukan sih. Mereka pasti mikir ini orang tebel muka amet minta di lempar dari lante 5 food court. Lol!

Yah, not much sih for now. But it was a good meeting. Gua enjoy banget ketemu orang-orang yang hobby nya sama kek gua. Apalagi karakter mereka interesting banget. Dewasa and punya pandangan hidup masing-masing.


Hoping that when we meet again next time bisa sharing more in depth thoughts about writing!
Yiha!


That's all for now :)


-M.

Andy Lau ft. Kelly Chen - Wo Bu Gou Ai Ni - I Don't Love You Enough

Listen and Download:
HERE.

Lyrics:
Wo xiang wo bu gou ai ni
I don't think I love you enough

Wo bu chen wang le zi ji
I have never forgotten myself

Mei na me chuen xin tou ru
I didn't invest my whole heart [into the relationship]

Suo yi hui yi pai tu di
That's why I failed


Wo xiang wo bu gou ai ni
I don't think I love you enough

Wo wang le ni de yong qi
I forgot your courage

Mei pan fa zhong lai yi ci
We can't start over again

Ye zhi hao ting tian you ling
So let's just let fate lead us


Bu neng zai mei you yue liang de ye li
I am unable to stay in this moonless night

Ye bu neng qing yi, dou bi shang yan qin
Neither can I close my eyes

Ying wei ni hui chu xian
Because you will appear

Zai tian kong huo xin li
In the skies or the stars


Bu neng zai yi wang wu jing de di fang
I can't be in a empty field

Ye bu neng zuang jin, na yong qi ren qun
Neither can I escape into the crowd

Ying wei chi bu chi mo
Because loneliness

Do hui qi xing wo
Will remind me

Wo shi qu le
That I have lost

Wo bu gou ai de ni
The person I did not love enough


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M.

Rendezvous - Bagian 1 sampai 4

Rendezvous
Bagian 1, 2, 3 dan 4.

"Aku", "Dia", "Kamu" dan "Kalian".


Rendezvous - Bagian 1

"Aku"


Aku adalah individualis melankolis, sensitive, positive dan menyukai segala hal yang audio-visual. Aku penggembira, menyukai aroma Cappuccino di pagi hari ketika memulai aktifitas. Aku juga menyukai memasang sabuk pengaman sebelum mengendarai mobil. Hal tersebut membuatku merasa aman dan nyaman.

Aku menyukai banyak hal, tapi yang paling kusukai adalah ketika melihat namamu muncul di layar Blackberry ku.



Rendezvous - Bagian 2

"Dia"


Dia adalah sahabat lamaku. Seorang anak hartawan. Dia tinggi, supel dan sangat pandai berwacana. Sejujurnya aku bisa melihat ketertarikanmu padanya.

“Dia.. Dia mengajakku keluar,” kamu memulai percakapan harian kita sambil berseri-seri. “Dia baru saja meneleponku, katanya besok malam ada peresmian kantor barunya dan ia ingin aku menjadi pendamping nya.”

“Oh.. Bagus sekali!” balasku.

Ada sedikit rasa tidak enak di dada ku. Disanakah letak hati seorang manusia?

Kata guru biologi sewaktu aku masih di kelas 5 SD, hati letaknya ada di bagian kiri perut. Harusnya aku merasakan sakit perut bukan sakit di dada.

Dia orang yang sudah lama kamu kagumi.

Kamu lumayan sering mengungkit soal dirinya ketika kita bercakap, bagaimana kamu berharap dia bisa menyadari kehadiranmu. Sekarang dia telah menyadarimu. Bahkan mengajakmu menjadi pendampingnya ke pesta.

Ada sebuah ungkapan ‘Bahagialah jika melihat orang yang kamu cintai bahagia.’ Saat itu aku merasa ungkapan itu FAIL! Gagal! Teruk! Benar-benar tidak relevan dan tidak bisa diandalkan.



Rendezvous - Bagian 3

"Kamu"


Kamu dan aku, percakapan kita selalu terjadi di waktu yang sama setiap hari. Kurang lebih pukul sebelas malam. Percakapan kita selalu dimulai oleh kamu atau aku.

Aku tidak tahu mengapa aku memilih untuk tetap menjadi orang yang berbicara denganmu, dan dipilih menjadi orang yang kamu ajak bicara. Kadang aku merasa tersanjung menjadi kawan bicaramu karena kamu tidak seperti wanita lain, kamu elegan dan menarik tanpa harus berpakaian terbuka. Kamu berwawasan, rendah hati dan rajin.

Kamu dan aku, kita jarang bertemu. Hanya sering bercakap melalui Blackberry. Ya. Tidak ada yang romantis, tidak ada yang begitu luar biasa tentang hal itu. Ini lah satu-satunya cara berkomunikasi yang paling efisien diantara kita. Topik pembicaraan kita juga tidak terlalu banyak. Kebanyakan tentang hal-hal yang kamu lakukan pada hari itu, atau hal-hal yang aku lakukan. Kadang-kadang kita menertawakan hal konyol bersama.

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Taukah kamu kamu mengingatkan ku dengan kue mochi?

Kamu tertawa ketika aku tidak sengaja memanggilmu dengan sebutan Mochi di salah satu percakapan kita. Menurutmu sebutan itu konyol. Namun setelah kerjadian itu, sebagai ganti nya kamu menamaiku Mochi Pink. Ketika ingin kuberi warna ke sebutan Mochi untuk mu, kamu dengan tegas menolak semua warna.

“Mochi Putih?”

“Mochi Hijau?”

“Aku mau Mochi Pelangi!” tulis mu memaksa. “Mochi Pelangi agar aku tidak pernah kesepian.”

Aku tertegun dan hanya bisa tersenyum membaca jawaban mu. Begitu banyak orang kesepian di dunia, pasti mereka juga ingin menjadi Mochi Pelangi seperti dirimu pikirku.

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Mochi adalah kue yang lunak, manis dan lembut tetapi lengket sekali. Semula nya Mochi itu berwarna putih bertabur gula dan kacang tumbuk. Kamu sama seperti kue Mochi itu melekat lengket di benak ku. Bandel dan tidak mau lepas.

Setiap aku mencoba berhenti memikirkanmu, melepaskan keinginan untuk mencarimu. Aku selalu gagal, tidak pernah bisa berhasil.

Jika kamu bertanya padaku, apakah aku jatuh cinta padamu. Aku tidak tau jawabannya. Tidak ada definisi yang tepat tentang cinta. Tetapi taukah kamu sewaktu suatu hari di tengah percakapan kita hatiku merasa sakit ketika kamu menulis bahwa kamu merasa kesepian di tempat ramai?

Taukah kamu, kalau kamu adalah orang pertama yang muncul di pikiranku ketika aku bangun tidur?

Kadang ketika kamu mengeluhan kepada ku bahwa kamu membutuhkan lebih banyak cinta. Saat-saat itu aku begitu tergoda, untuk membawamu ke tempat yang jauh dari semua jenis kehidupan. Sebuah tempat yang tenang dan damai. Sebuah tempat di mana aku bisa membuat mu berhenti merasakan kesepian itu, dan menyayangimu sepenuh hati...



Rendezvous - Bagian 4

"Kalian"


Mukamu berseri-seri ketika kita bertemu siang ini.

“Hey, dia akan menjemputku malam nanti!” ucapmu ceria.

Dengan senyum setulusnya aku bersuka cita untukmu, bagaimana pun ini adalah hari kemenanganmu. Kau telah suka padanya untuk beberapa waktu dan hari ini adalah hari pembuktian dia juga merasakan hal yang sama terhadapmu.

Hey sahabatku, mungkin kamu akan berubah kelak setelah kalian jadian. Aku tidak keberataan, melihatmu tersenyum bahagia sudah cukup bagiku walaupun hati ini teriris-iris.

Awal-awal kalian bersama sungguh berat bagiku.

Kamu dan aku masih mengobrol sampai ketika sebuah momen dimana arah topic pembicaraan kita terkesan terlalu akrab. Kamu berkata lebih baik kita tidak terlalu banyak bercakap.

Menghargai permintaan mu, aku memutuskan untuk mundur dan menjauhkan diri.

Bagaimanapun juga aku yang seorang manusia memiliki sebuah harga diri.

Malam usai bercakap terakhir kalinya denganmu, aku menerima tawaran proyek membangun sebuah komplek perumahan di ibu kota selama setahun. Segera kukepak koper dan tas ranselku, aku memesan tiket pesawat pertama keesokan harinya menuju ke Ibu Kota. Aku sangat berharap selama setahun penuh masa kontrak kerja ku aku bisa pelan-pelan menghapusmu dari ingatanku.

Ketika berada di airport keesokan harinya. Aku merasa hampa dan kosong. Menghentakkan kakiku melangkah ke pesawat, aku berangkat terbang diantara langit kota kita di pagi hari.


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This is my first attempt of Continuous Story.

If there's a single human being who understand Indonesian and happen to read this in my blog. Please drop a comment :)

M.

Teresa Teng - Ni Zen Me Shuo - What Do You Have To Say?

Listen and Download:
HERE.

Lyrics:
你怎么說 | Ni Zen Me Shuo | What do You have to Say?

＊我没忘记　你忘记我
＊Wo mei wang ji ni wang ji wo
＊I haven’t forgotten, but you’ve forgotten me.

连名子你都说错
Lian ming zi ni dou shuo chuo
You even get my name wrong

证明你一切都是在骗我
Zheng ming ni yi qie dou shi zai pian wo
Goes to show that you've been lying to me

看今天你怎麽说
Kan jin tian ni zen me shuo
Let's see what you have to say today


＃你说过两天来看我
＃Ni shuo guo liang tian lai kan wo
＃You say that you'll come look for me in a couple of days

一等就是一年多
Yi deng jiu shi yi nian duo
But I've waited for over a year

三百六十五个日子不好过
San bai liu shi wu ri zi bu hao guo
365 days is not easy to get by

你心里根本没有我
Ni xin li gen ben mei you wo
I am not in your heart at all

把我的爱情还给我
Ba wo de ai qing huan gei wo
Return my love to me

Repeat　＊,＃,＃

Video:


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Teresa Teng is my favorite Chinese woman singer of all time!
She's long passed away, but her legacy of music and heavenly voice live forever :)

M.

Guarantee

Driving a German car is not a guarantee of safety.
Driving carefully and patiently is the key to salvation.

Bringing along a dozen of bodyguards is no guarantee of security.
Being humble, friendly and not finding enemies is the key to security.

Drugs and vitamins is not a guarantee for health.
Keep your mouth, proper diet and regular exercise is the key to a healthy life.

Luxurious home is no guarantee of a happy family.
Attention to others, respect, and mutual forgiveness is the key to family happiness.

High salary is no guarantee of satisfaction with life.
Grateful, frugality and love of life's blessings is the key to life satisfaction.

High position is no guarantee of respectable life.
Honesty, credibility and discipline is the key to respectable life.

Living spree and wasting money around is no guarantee of having many friends.
Faithful friends, wisdom, solidarity and helpful is the key to a friend.

Cosmetic is not a guarantee for beauty.
Morale, caring, high-spirited, friendly and smiling is the key to beauty.

Security guard and a sturdy fence is not a guarantee of a peaceful life.
Peaceful heart, compassion, and free from greed and hatred is the key to peace and security.


HAVE A NICE DAY.

-End-


Quoted from chain mails.

M.

All are friends

I had such an interesting week last week!
I was hanging out with my old high school friends!
Vincent, William Achu, Deddy and Jacelyn.

We haven't seen each other for so long!!
but recently we kinda hanging out..
Watching the mini theatre, hanging out, playing Ludo, talking whatever things that cross ur mind, playing cards.
I don't know what it is. but I kinda feel comfortable with the whole thing..
We just know each other since back then so we can be very open and honest.

Sometimes when I hang around friends, I can sense sort of artificial bond, or a feeling that it's just a beneficial friendship where you get used or U get to use people. That kind of friendship is considered a social necessity for me. It's not that I ever use people. But it's just not very real. It is not something that I can tie my heart around or trust on too much. I am just so sick of feeling pain, betrayed, loss or any other negative feelings that I always remind myself to never give myself away.

Anyway! the most interesting time was Yesterday!

Yesterday we went to Sunggal!
It was just me, Deddy, Vincent and Jace.
We visited the Crocodile Park and saw numerous number of crocodiles with all size and age. I don't know crocodile could ever look so lazy -,-''
They were just laying around like pieces of wood LOG.
I know they are dangerous though..
Me and my friends were kinda walking around in that small park. Amazed and also kinda feeling funny that Sunggal is so close to Medan City, but Yesterday was the first time all of us ever actually went to the Crocodile Park. But I feel good, at least we visited the place together and could be a good memory to think about.

I ever once visited reptile's park in Thailand when I was still a kid with my Mum and younger bro. Those Thailand's crocodiles sure was a lot more active than the ones I saw with my friends Yesterday.

There are other reptile too in that park. Huge turtles and some Big size Snakes. They also have this huge swamp with muddy water and filled with green algae looking thingy on the surface. We can see a number of crocodile's head floating on the swamp. Thank god there are fences around the swamp or I might felt curious and get closer or something and being eaten by a giant crocodile or whatever.

Well, the whole crocodile park idea was a spontaneous idea. HAHA.
Me and my friends were actually just going to eat some TAHU KUAH HE-CI and MIE REBUS.
Those two are the famous dishes from Sunggal.

So, after the crocodile park, we were heading to Sommerset Housing where we can find the infamous diner recommended by our very own Ms.Jacelyn. Thank you crocodile park auntie for drawing us a tiny map to find the diner place cause Mr.Vincent and Ms.Jacelyn kinda forget how to go there. Me and Deddy were just as clueless about the whole thing.
Sunggal is an unfamiliar territory for me. HAHA!

The he-ci was really nice. Kinda the best he-ci I ever tasted so far. The Mie Rebus also taste nice. We also ordered a plate of Satay with Peanut Sauce.

After that meal, we headed back to Medan City and was planning to go to the great Tjong Afie house since the 4 of us never went there. *Ashamed* We are such bad Medanese indo-chinese HAHA.
But when we arrived there the historic memorial place already closed. It's open from 9-5 only. So, too bad there is nothing I can write about it now.

--
Having a ride around, good man Vincent drive us around Yesterday.
After the crocodile, had nice Sunggal meal and being rejected from Tjong Afie house. We headed to Cambridge, had a glass of Starbucks coffee for ourselves and play cards for awhile. Met some friends too in there. Old friends, old friends.

Then until around 6 something Mr.Vincent had to leave cause he got some things to do. Hehehhe.

He left the 3 of us in my house and then it was my turn to drive.
We go fetch my little sister back to home from Sun and then headed to Sushi Tei to have a dinner.

After dinner, had some coffee at Bakerzine. It was just across the Japanese restaurant.

I think I might have spent rather too much Yesterday but I had a good time ^^ And beside it was a rare occasion that we could hang out all day like that. It's very worth it :D

Late night Coffee time.
We got to catch up the missing time and we talk a lot.
Laugh some and I hope they had a good time and feel good too like me.
I don't know how much I miss my old friends until I have met them again.
They are all different now but It's very nice to finally catching up the lost time.

Friends friends, all friends. Everyone are friends :)
I love all my friends dearly.

M.

A Letter from Mom and Dad

...My Child,

When I get old,
I hope you understand and have patience with me.

In case I break a plate,
or spill soup on the table because I am losing my eyesight,
I hope you don't yell at me.
Older people are sensitive.
Always having self-pity when you yell.

When my hearing gets worse and I can't hear what you are saying,
I hope you don't call me, "Deaf!"
Please repeat what you say
Or write it down

I am sorry, my child.
... I am getting older

When my knees get weaker,
I hope you have the patience to help me get up.
Like how I used to help you when you were little,
learning how to walk.

Please bear with me
When I keep repeating myself like a broken record,
I hope you just keep listening to me
Please don't make fun of me,
or
get sick of listening to me

Do you remember when you were little and you wanted a Balloon?
You repeated yourself over and over until you got what you wanted

...Please also pardon my smell.
I smell like an old person
Please don't force me to shower.
My body is weak.
Old people gets sick easily when they are cold.
I hope I don't gross you out.

Do you remember when you were little?
I used to chase you around because you didn't want to shower.

I hope you can be patient with me
When I am always cranky
It's all part of getting old.
You'll understand when you're older

And if you have spare time,
I hope we can talk
Even for a few minutes
I am always by myself all the time.
And have no one to talk to
I know you are busy with work.
Even if you are not interested in my stories,
please have time for me.

Do you remember when you were little?
I used to listen to your stories about your teddy bear.

When the time comes
and I get ill and bedridden,
I hope you have the patience to take care of me.

I'M SORRY
If I accidentally wet the bed or make a mess.
I hope you have the patience to take care of me during the last few moments of my life
I am not going to last much longer, anyway.

When the time of my death comes,
I hope you hold my hand
and give me the strength to face death.

And don't worry...
When I finally meet our creator..
I will whisper in his ear
to BLESS you
Because you loved your Mom and Dad.
Thank you so much for your care.
We love you.

With much love,
- Mom and Dad-


-End-

I came across this video on Facebook and found the link to share it here using YouTube.
OMG... this video made me cry a hundred tears.
I have always been trying to make my parents happy.
But when I look at this video
I know I haven't done much for them
I am afraid and also feel so sad if my parents would later on get older...
:(
I love them so much.

Click here to go back to top.

M.

Faye Wong - Eyes On Me

Listen and Download:
HERE.

Lyrics:
Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar

My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me

Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper

How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
did you ever know
That I had mine on you

Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer

Video:


-End-


I've been listening to this song since i was a Kid and was playing Final Fantasy 8 :))
This is a very good song ^^

M

This is why stores have to have stock list

Something so strange happened just now!
Went to the small Supermarket near my Showroom. Walked with the rhythm of the falling rain ^^ It is raining.. I love the rain..

So, in the I got myself two Magnum (ice cream), a Toothpaste, and a loaf of bread.

So, each Magnum's price is Rp.11,000, the toothpaste cost Rp.7,000 and the bread cost the same as the Magnum.

Magnum x2 = Rp. 22,000.
Toothpaste = Rp. 7,000.
Bread = Rp. 11.000.
Total = Rp. 40,000.

But the cashier's typed in the register, and the total in the receipt was Rp. 29.000!! =.=''
I think she hadn't input one of the ice cream or the breadddd!

I've argued with the cashier that the total is more than that but she wasn't listening.
Oh well.. I feel bad for the owner cause the employee is so thick!
Was turning my head around, trying to find the Auntie. She was no where to be found.
Nothing I can do, keep insisting on paying more will just make me look stupid -,-''


Oh dear.. such a strange happening -,-'
By doing this, will it be counted as a Sin??
Nyoh..
Hope nottt.. -__-''


M.

The Lion Whisperer

Wow! I just came across this dude in the internet!

His name is Kevin Richardson (similar name with the Kevin Richardson of the Backstreet Boys).
He's a Lion Whisperer! Means he can make a bond with The Lions!
And some other animal like the Hyena and the Panther or the Cheetah!

I also found out that he's living with 38 lions! o.O''

I think that's so cool.. I'd like to Hug a lion too! and make it guard my house >..<'' I have soft spot for Cat or Kitten.. Though I'd be scared to stand near a living Lion -,-'' Unless it's in the zoo and they're behind the bars with huge pond in between *sniggers

Here are some cool Pictures of the dude and his lions:






Quite cool right?!
Seems like this guy is so sweet and soft with the Lions! ^^
You can find some cool videos of this guy in You Tube :D

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M.

Fool's Garden - Lemon Tree

Listen and Download:
HERE.

Lyrics:
I'm sitting here in the boring room
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time
I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast
I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely
I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens and I wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree

I'm sitting here
I miss the power
I'd like to go out taking a shower
But there's a heavy cloud inside my head
I feel so tired
Put myself into bed
Well, nothing ever happens and I wonder

Isolation is not good for me
Isolation I don't want to sit on the lemon-tree

I'm steppin' around in the desert of joy
Baby anyhow I'll get another toy
And everything will happen and you wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
And I wonder, wonder

I wonder how
I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see, and all that I can see, and all that I can see
Is just a yellow lemon-tree

Video:


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This is a very old song!
I remember my Big bro and a cousin was listening to this repeatedly while me and my younger brother playing Ghost Buster in the old Nintendo 96!


M.

Crashed

Today is a totally crashed day Indeed -_-'

I fell ASLEEP in the middle of the working time!
I was so tired! Couldn't keep my eyes open.

Last night was Granny's Birthday, and the entire family from out of town was coming.
Oh well, except some imbeciles grandchildren were missing.. whatever their reason, it's unforgivable not to show up on your granny's birthday.
Hello? A little conscience?
At the end of the party My Dad brought along and opened up a Black Label Jack Daniel's as a complimentary for the party.

I drank 3 shots!

When the birthday was over and we all went back home. I felt all warm and so awake I couldn't sleep. Alcohol affects me differently perhaps. Last time when I was at Entrance I was dancing like a hyper lunatic. Still so blank when I think about that night.
But last night I felt quite awake!
Watching some TV series and then in the middle of the night was listening to Dol ranting about some matters.

Anyway, I think I finally asleep around 4? or somewhere around that time.

I had to wake up at 8 and start working.

Then, Fell asleep arnd 3 o'clock in the afternoon.

My Boss was livid. When I said Boss I mean my MUM. She was like this Lioness. So scary.

-,-''

So, I learn my lesson. No Alcohol on working day -,-'' it has bad effects not only for health but for the safety of your work environment!

-End-


M.

Last one for Now

I have admired you for sometimes now..

You have the most gorgeous smile I've ever set my eyes on.
You are independent.
You are strong.

You are everything I adore..

Even though so..
I have to set my feet on this reality.
Live my whole life for something real.

You are in relationship...

Seeing your hands joining together.
Seeing your happiness when you are together.
Seeing your eyes filled with joy around her.

My heart keep breaking..
But you mustn't know.
She mustn't know.

I have to smile.
I have to be happy.

I truly don't enjoy the sight..
But I need to remind myself with this painful interaction of love you share..

I keep this pain in order to see you smile.
That's all I think of.

Something real, u will figure it out in future time..
You will find out the truth... Truth never lies..

Right now,
You are living in this lie.
Lie that faked like real.
Your so blind.
Blinded by all the joyful things, the tasty words.

I feel sad for your blindness.

I don't know whether you know the things that she has done..
All the cheating and the lies..

I don't know..
Perhaps you love her so much you ignore it.
Perhaps you love her so much you pretend your ignorance.

Or perhaps..

Your really blind from it all...

Either way..
Your sad.. Your a sad sad hopeless romantic.

Honestly.. When I think about you.
I almost weep..

But for now you don't know yet.. and it doesn't matter, does it?

If you are happy with this kind of situation..
I am happy for you too..
That's all I want.

I can't whisper the truth..
What's the use of that when you are still living in this crazy paradise.
You won't believe a word I say anyway.

So, there's really nothing I can do.
Other than little pieces of my heart is missing everyday.

One day when you can open your eyes.

And you are still with her.
Maybe at that time she changed or you accepted her.
I have promise myself that I am still going to be happy for you.

But when you choose to leave her.. Or more ironic. She left you.

I'll be there.
As a friend..
As someone who try to cheer you..
As someone who will try to be the best for you...

But at that time if you don't see me fit.

The final piece of my heart for you would hesitantly disappear.
Life will go on as it always is.

All I want is for you to be happy.
Nothing more.

Cause you..
Are at best when you smile and happy.

-End-



M.

Sailing again

When I saw you the first time.

You were standing out from others.

You tried to step on both ships..

But in the end you fall down cause the ships depart into different directions.

I feel very bad for you.

The other ship has abandoned you.

I only want someone who choose to step on my ship with both feet or not at all.

You've been fooled.. I don't know, I've predicted it.

Still

I feel bad for you.

If only you were wise enough...

I've gave u the mini boat for u to sail yourself..

And me..

I am going to sail again,
Perhaps next time, the next person that I meet can decide where to put the feet on just one ship.

-End-


M.

One of Those Days

It's 12.42 PM

It's an odd day today.

I slept at 4 AM and woke up at 7 exactly.
There's no alarm. No one knocking on the door.

Perhaps, it's because I was dreaming of someone.. Maybe it's so unreal it woke me up.

So well.. today is started.
Cleaning up then doing my errands just now.

I have a couple of sleepless nights recently. Sometimes I have a bad dream, I woke up but I forget what's the bad dream was.

I don't know what's the matter with me. But one of these days I feel like just laying down, close my eyes and sleep like for days.

I don't want to die or anything. Life has been good.
I have drove through one hell of a ride so far
and I plan to get into another exciting journey in the future.

I am thinking about writing a novel about life in average. Life in my POV. But I know better, people would all die in despair after reading it.

Hey! Wait! I am a happy person seriously! I think I am very positive and uncaring about the small stuffs. I think that makes me so happy, positive and easy going that I am bored? --'
Does that make sense?

I think if I am the heart meter. The beat would be flat.
I think I just lost my soul somewhere.
I think.. I think too much -,-'
I am confusing myself sometimes.

But well, I know I am special and stuff.

This is just one of those unfortunate days where u don't get enough sleep and your mind wonders and take control of your entire existence for a while.

There are two house flies btw near the kitchen.
It can't be helped though.. They are "house" flies after all...
I wish their name should be terrace flies, or pavement flies, or something else.. so they stay outside.

I hate flies. I hate mosquitoes. I hate insects.
Nothing cute about them.

But I do love flowers, forehead kisses, and hugs.

Damn. That's not even connected at all.
I can be chatty.
Crap.
--


End

M.

Granny's gift

I accompanied my Mum to the market.
She was shopping for the stuffs to give to my grandma for her birthday.

My dad and her was making this kind of huge basket filled with stuffs.
Some canned Pork Chops and Sardines.
Some Oranges.
Some Apples.
Two bottle of Madoc Red Wine (I was looking at the wine)
Some Eggs?
There are some other things but I can't recall anyway.

I don't know why they have to put it in the basket, but it looks nice though. I have no idea my Dad actually have talent in packaging.

My Grandma's birthday isn't due until next week. But Happy Birthday Grandma.
Love you. You and I don't see each other much. But I am thinking of u a lot. Muax.

-End-

M.

Kesabaran

Di suatu sore, seorang anak datang kepada ayahnya yg sedang baca koran…

“Ayah, ayah” kata sang anak.

“Ada apa?” tanya sang ayah.

“Aku capek, sangat capek … aku capek karena aku belajar mati matian untuk mendapat nilai bagus sedang temanku bisa dapat nilai bagus dengan menyontek…aku mau menyontek saja! aku capek. sangat capek…

Aku capek karena aku harus terus membantu ibu membersihkan rumah, sedang temanku punya pembantu, aku ingin kita punya pembantu saja! … aku capek, sangat capek …

Aku capek karena aku harus menabung, sedang temanku bisa terus jajan tanpa harus menabung…aku ingin jajan terus!

Aku capek, sangat capek karena aku harus menjaga lisanku untuk tidak menyakiti, sedang temanku enak saja berbicara sampai aku sakit hati…

Aku capek, sangat capek karena aku harus menjaga sikapku untuk menghormati teman teman ku, sedang teman temanku seenaknya saja bersikap kepada ku…

Aku capek ayah, aku capek menahan diri…aku ingin seperti mereka…mereka terlihat senang, aku ingin bersikap seperti mereka ayah !” sang anak pun mulai menangis.

Kemudian sang ayah hanya tersenyum dan mengelus kepala anaknya sambil berkata, ”Anakku ayo ikut ayah, ayah akan menunjukkan sesuatu kepadamu," lalu sang ayah menarik tangan sang anak kemudian mereka menyusuri sebuah jalan yang sangat jelek, banyak duri, serangga, lumpur, dan ilalang… lalu sang anak pun mulai mengeluh ” ayah mau kemana kita?? Aku tidak suka jalan ini, lihat sepatuku jadi kotor, kakiku luka karena tertusuk duri. badanku dikelilingi oleh serangga, berjalanpun susah krn ada banyak ilalang… aku benci jalan ini ayah.”

Sang ayah hanya diam.

Sampai akhirnya mereka sampai pada sebuah telaga yang sangat indah, airnya sangat segar, ada banyak kupu kupu, bunga bunga yang cantik, dan pepohonan yang rindang…

“Wwaaaah… tempat apa ini ayah? Aku suka! Aku suka tempat ini!” sang ayah hanya diam dan kemudian duduk di bawah pohon yang rindang beralaskan rerumputan hijau.

“Kemarilah anakku, ayo duduk di samping ayah,” ujar sang ayah, lalu sang anak pun ikut duduk di samping ayahnya.

” Anakku, tahukah kau mengapa di sini begitu sepi? padahal tempat ini begitu indah…?”

” Tidak tahu ayah, memangnya kenapa?”

” Itu karena orang orang tidak mau menyusuri jalan yang jelek tadi, padahal mereka tau ada telaga di sini, tetapi mereka tidak bisa bersabar dalam menyusuri jalan itu.”

” Ooh… berarti kita orang yang sabar ya yah? Syukurlah..”

” Nah, akhirnya kau mengerti.”

” Mengerti apa Ayah? Aku tidak mengerti.”

” Anakku, butuh kesabaran dalam belajar, butuh kesabaran dalam bersikap baik, butuh kesabaran dalam kujujuran, butuh kesabaran dalam setiap kebaikan agar kita mendapat kemenangan, seperti jalan yang tadi… bukankah kau harus sabar saat ada duri melukai kakimu, kau harus sabar saat lumpur mengotori sepatumu, kau harus sabar melawati ilalang dan kau pun harus sabar saat dikelilingi serangga… dan akhirnya semuanya terbayar kan? ada telaga yang sangatt indah.. seandainya kau tidak sabar, apa yang kau dapat? kau tidak akan mendapat apa apa anakku, oleh karena itu bersabarlah anakku”

” Tapi ayah, tidak mudah untuk bersabar.”

” Aku tau, oleh karena itu ada ayah yang menggenggam tanganmu agar kau tetap kuat … begitu pula hidup, ada ayah dan ibu yang akan terus berada di sampingmu agar saat kau jatuh, kami bisa mengangkatmu, tapi… ingatlah anakku… ayah dan ibu tidak selamanya bisa mengangkatmu saat kau jatuh, suatu saat nanti, kau harus bisa berdiri sendiri… maka jangan pernah kau gantungkan hidupmu pada orang lain, jadilah dirimu sendiri… seorang pemuda beriman yang kuat, yang tetap tabah dan taat karena ia tahu ada Tuhan di sampingnya… maka kau akan dapati dirimu tetap berjalan menyusuri kehidupan saat yang lain memutuskan untuk berhenti dan pulang… maka kau tau akhirnya kan?”

” Ya ayah, aku tau.. aku akan dapat surga yang indah yang lebih indah dari telaga ini … sekarang aku mengerti … terima kasih ayah , aku akan tegar saat yang lain terlempar.”

Sang ayah hanya tersenyum sambil menatap wajah anak kesayangannya.

-End-


This story is not mine. It's chain lettered through the mail.
Have a good read.

M.

6 Pelajaran Hati

1. Awal dari cinta adalah membiarkan orang yang kita cinta menjadi dirinya sendiri, dan tidak merubahnya menjadi gambaran yang kita inginkan.. Jika tidak, kita hanya mencintai pantulan diri sendiri yang kita temukan di dalam dirinya.

2. Hanya diperlukan waktu semenit untuk menaksir seseorang, sejam untuk menyukai seseorang, dan sehari untuk mencintai seseorang.. Tetapi diperlukan waktu seumur hidup untuk melupakan seseorang.

3. Kebahagiaan tersedia bagi mereka yang menangis, mereka yang disakiti hatinya, mereka yang mencari, dan mereka yang mencoba.. Karena hanya mereka itulah yang menghargai pentingnya orang-orang yang pernah hadir dalam hidup mereka.

4. Jangan pernah mengucapkan selamat tinggal jika kamu masih mau mencoba, jangan pernah menyerah jika kamu masih merasa sanggup, dan jangan pernah mengatakan kamu tidak mencintainya lagi jika kamu masih tidak dapat melupakannya.

5. Waktu kamu lahir, kamu menangis dan orang-orang disekelilingmu tersenyum - maka jalanilah hidupmu dengan baik, sehingga pada waktu kamu meninggal, kamu akan tersenyum dan orang-orang disekelilingmu menangis.

6. Bermimpilah tentang apa yang ingin kamu impikan, pergilah ketempat-tempat kamu ingin pergi, jadilah seperti yang kamu inginkan, karena kamu hanya memiliki satu kehidupan dan satu kesempatan untuk melakukan hal-hal yang ingin kamu lakukan.

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M.

Usher - Let It Burn

Download and Listen:
www.4shared.com

Lyrics:

I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And it's better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

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M.

Life is an Echo

Life is an echo.
What you send out - comes back.
What you sow - you reap.
What you give - you get.
What you see in others - exists in you.

Remember, Life is an echo.
It always get back to you.

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Not mine too.
Enjoy :)

M.

Life is too Short

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.

So, love the people who treat you right
and forget about the ones who don't.

And believe
that everything happens for a reason...

If you get a chance - take it
If it change your life - let it

Nobody say it would be easy...
They just promised
it would be worth it.

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Not mine. Just savor it.

M.

Paramore - The Only Exception

Listen and Download:
HERE.

Lyrics:

When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways
To make it alone
Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Ohh---

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing

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My Exception :)

M.

The Joker

She is the master of manipulation.
She knows how to trick your mind.
She is the Joker.

She can be nice.
She can be cruel.

Joker knows how to play by the rules.
Yet, she also know how to play beyond the rules.

Joker is a good friend.
Joker is a bad foe.

When you face a Joker.
You better know your next step.

Joker makes your life exciting.
Joker can make your life miserable.

Joker looks so invincible.
But deep inside Ms Joker is a human too.

Ms Joker. Oh, Ms Joker.
What should we do to understand you?

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Dedicated to a friend of mine.
Whose actions have taught me that some people are just not meant for you to be too close.
Not because you are not good.
But because they themselves are too insecure or incapable of attachment.

M.

Brian Mcknight - Back at One

Listen and Download:
HERE.

Lyrics:

It's undeniable, that we should be together
It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never
The basis is need to know, if you don't know just how I feel,
Then let me show you now that I'm for real
If all things in time, time will reveal
Yeah...

One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it's plain to see.. that your the only one for me
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done, then I start to Back at One (yeah)

So Incredible, the way things work themselves out
And all emotional, once you know what it's all about babe
And undesirable, for us to be apart
Never would of made it very far
Cause you know you've got the keys to my heart

Cause...

One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it's plain to see, that your the only one for me
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done, then I start to Back at One...

Say farewell to the dark of night, I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child, whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life
Into this lonely heart of mine...
You threw out the life line,... just in the Nick of Time...

One, you're like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it's plain to see, that your the only one for me... girl and...
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done, then I start to Back at One.

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Very beautiful song..

M.

Turning to a new page

Turning to a new page.

That's what I think this exact phase of my life is.

I have resigned from teaching as a part-time teacher.
There are some significant and insignificant reasons to that, but to conclude it. Just say.. I wasn't treated with the respect I want even though I have done what I can to help the school and their schedules.
To make my decision even firmer , I really can't picture the life that I want for myself by doing what I was doing. I think it's a call. It's a sign. I don't know. I just feel it deep in my gut, a realization.

Something that should be noted down very seriously,
I DO love all my students with all my heart. Even the dense and naughty ones. Cause they are basically still pure souls. Full of love and innocence. So dearly! <3

But life,
My life. Must go on to the direction where I want it to go.

--

Currently, I am starting on handling one of the branch of my parents' business. Handling? Supervising? Whatever you call the head of it. It's a Motorcycle Dealer. What brand? e-mail me for further info. hahaha! ^^''
I am planning to increase the sales number. I haven't figure out the way yet, but I think God do like me very much! The two days I started doing the work, I managed to sell some! ^^
I will make things work for me. Or I will make myself work for it.

This is not my first time though. When I was still in college I was already being nagged by Mum to get into it. But I never have the urge or the passion. When I was a kid I always thought that I would be an actress or a painter! I was more of a melancholic artistic kid. I think I am still having that now?
But surely life didn't lead me to that direction. That's cool with me. Inside me I always know whatever happen to me, meant to happen and I will be alright and even become better and better each days. One thing that I always keep in my mind is: Whenever I fall down or feel down, that's the moment I should believe in myself the most.

--

So, somewhere along the way from college until now. I've work in several occupations. As a financial consultant, a Forex (Currency Trading) consultant, a part-time teacher, a marketer, I get myself into so many crazy and difficult situations. Yeah, I am 21 and believe it or not I've been through 1 hell of a hazardous ride! And that ride is the best lesson in my life so far.

I've once spent all my entire savings to redeem the consequences of the risks that I took. But it's all worth it. I feel myself being saved constantly by miracles and I have different perspective about life now.

And this couple of years after graduating High School and College, I've met many kind of people from many different kind of lifestyle and age. I feel very rewarded for having met these people, knew and listened to their life and story.

There are so many years ahead, and many more things to experience and embrace.

This decisions of shifting career is just one of them.
Another page of the life book. My own personal book.

Life is beautiful and Meaningful.
Embrace it. Live it.
Enjoy everything that's coming and happening.
Life is very rewarding, every problems, every blessings.

M.

People Like Us by Robert Bly

There are more like us. All over the world
There are confused people, who can't remember
The name of their dog when they wake up, and people
Who love God but can't remember where

He was when they went to sleep. It's
All right. The world cleanses itself this way.
A wrong number occurs to you in the middle
Of the night, you dial it, it rings just in time

To save the house. And the second-story man
Gets the wrong address, where the insomniac lives,
And he's lonely, and they talk, and the thief
Goes back to college. Even in graduate school,

You can wander into the wrong classroom,
And hear great poems lovingly spoken
By the wrong professor. And you find your soul,
And greatness has a defender, and even in death you're safe.

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M.

Melissa Etheridge - I've Loved You Before

Listen and Download:
HERE.

Lyrics:

I think of how you know me,
no doubts no thinking twice.
When your smile can be so soothing,
a familiar paradise.
When there's no one else that makes me whole.
I have never needing more
I get this feeling I've loved you before

We were lovers in an army,
marching all for Rome.
side by side in battle,
did we bravely leave our home?
Did I hold you in my arms,
as you were taking your last breath?
Did shout to all the gods,
that I would love you beyond death?
I swear I've loved you before.

Did we hide in the dark ages,
from a vengeful god above?
Were our names too unfamiliar,
to ever speak of love?
Did I cling to every moment with you,
in every parting glance?
An accidental touch,
did we ever take the chance?
I know I've loved you before.

Have I wandered through the desert?
Have I looked and learned all the stars?
Have I rode the days and nights on rails,
to get back where you are?
And every time I foundered,
it's your eyes I know for sure.

When I think of how you know me,
no doubts no thinking twice.
When your smile can be so soothing,
a familiar paradise.
When there's no one else that makes me whole.
I never wanting more.
I get this feeling.
I know I've loved you before.

I know I've loved you before
I've loved you before

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This is my favorite song of all time :)

xoxo,
M.

Matchbox 20 - Unwell

Listen and Download:
HERE.

Lyrics:

All day starin' at the ceilin' makin' friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices tellin' me that I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for somethin'
Hold on, feelin' like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be, me

I'm talkin' to myself in public, dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talkin' about me
I can hear them whisper, and it makes me think
There must be somethin' wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinkin', somehow I've lost my mind

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talkin' in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're takin' me away

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me

I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be yeah, how I used to be

How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be, how I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

Video:
HERE.

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I'm not crazy :)

xoxo,
M.

A Sweet Salt

A man met a girl at a party. The girl was looking incredibly beautiful. Many men was trying to chase the girl. The man on the contrary, appeared simple and no one was watching him. But, when the party was over, he dared himself to invite the girl to look for some warm drinks. The girl somewhat surprised, but because of the man's modesty, she nodded.

They both end up sitting in a coffee shop. The man was so nervous, his hands often fluttered and he did not say anything. The girl felt the tension and started to feel uncomfortable. She then said, "Wouldn't it be better if we go home?" However, all of a sudden the man talk, for the first time, as he was waving to the waiter, "Could I have a salt for my coffee?"

Everyone who heard it, looked strangely at him. The man, clearly his face turned red, but still, he put the salt in his coffee, and quietly, drink it.
The girl curiously asked, "How could you have a hobby like this?"
The man replied, "When I was little, I live in coastal areas near the sea. I loved playing in the sea, I could feel the water, salty and it bit a little, just like this salty coffee. And every time I have the salty coffee, I always remember my childhood: remember my hometown, I miss my hometown, I miss my parents who still live there. "
As soon as the last sentence is over, the man's eyes began to glaze, and the girl deeply touched by the sincere felt comments by the man in her presence. The girl thought, if a man can tell that he misses his hometown, surely the man who loves his home, his house and will have responsibility towards his home. Then the girl also started talking, telling stories about her far away hometown, her childhood, and her family.

Rigid atmosphere instantly changed into a warm conversation, and so became a beautiful beginning in their story. They ended up dating. She found that the man was a man who meets all her demands: she was very attentive, good-hearted, warm, very concerned.... really a very good person. Ah, she almost lost a guy like that. Thank God for the salty coffee.

Then the story was just like every love story, the princess married the prince and they lived happily ever after. And every time the princess made a coffee for the prince, she always put salt in it, not sugar, because she knew that's what her husband liked.

After 40 years, he passed away, left a letter. With shaking hands, the wife read the letter:

"My dearest, please forgive me, forgive that my whole life with you is a lie. Although it was only one single lie that I'd ever told ... about the salty coffee.
"Remember when we first went out together? I was so nervous at that time. Actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt. It was hard for me to change it because you would definitely felt more uncomfortable. So I just went ahead. I never thought that it could be the start of our communication! The beginning of our intimacy and the eyes of our love. I tried to tell you the truth all along, to tell you, but I was too scared. Since I have promised not to lie, even once.
"Now I am dying. I'm not afraid of anything anymore, so I am telling you the truth: I do not like the salty coffee, it's really weird and it taste really bad. But I always have salty coffee in my life since I've met you, and I never once feel sorry for everything I do for you. Having you is the greatest happiness in my life. If I could live for the second time, I still want to meet you again and have you in my life, even though I have to drink the salty coffee again. "

Tears of the wife actually makes the letter wet. Later today, if there is someone who asks her, what it feels like drinking coffee with salt? The girl would answer, "sweet," with a smile, and two teardrop on the cheek.

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Disclaimer:
Not mine. Translated from Indonesian's chain letters.

M.

Marcell - Firasat

Listen and Download:
HERE.

Lyric:

Kemarin kulihat awan membentuk wajahmu
desah angin meniupkan namamu
tubuhku terpaku

semalam bulan sabit melengkungkan senyummu
tabur bintang serupa kilau auramu
aku pun sadari, ku segera berlari

reff:cepat pulang
cepat kembali, jangan pergi lagi
firasatku ingin kau tuk cepat pulang
cepat kembali, jangan pergi lagi

alirnya bagai sungai yang mendamba samudera
ku tahu pasti kemanakan ku bermuara
semoga ada waktu, sayangku

ku percaya alam pun berbahasa
ada makna di balik semua pertanda
firasat ini rasa rindukah atau kah hanya bayang
aku tak peduli, ku terus berlari

repeat reff

dan lihatlah sayang
hujan terus membasahi
seolah turun air mata

repeat reff

English Translation:

Yesterday I saw the clouds forming your face
The sigh of the wind blows your name
my body become frozen

Last night's crescent bended your smile
The sprinkler of stars sparkled like your aura
I then realized, I immediately ran

reff:
Quicky return
Quickly return, do not go anymore
My foreboding wants you to return home quickly
Quickly return, do not go anymore

The flow is like a river which longing for the ocean
I know for sure where I am going to go
Hopefully there is time, my dear

I believe it's nature's language
There is meaning behind all the signs
This sense of foreboding is it yearning or whether only a shadow
I do not care, I kept running

repeat reff

and behold dear
the rain keeps soaking
seemed like tearing down

repeat reff

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Remember this song after reading Rectoverso.
Dewi Lestari the writer of that book also did a cover for this Marcell's song.
Here is the link for her version of "Firasat" (Dewi Lestari).

M.

Interesting Weekend

Saturdays are indeed always interesting!



This last Saturday was such a day, around 2.30 PM I was going to a finale of a Modeling Competition held by Lions Club Fine Arts at 26th floor The View, Swiss-bel Hotel. It's more extravagant than the competition I attended at J.W.Marriott last time.



I was there 'cause one of the sponsor and the committee member of the occasion was Ms Maggie Wong. A good friend. She had been inviting me and some friends to come along to watch it. Another reason for me to go there was to give support to an acquaintance, Mr Steven Leonard :)

I highly appreciate his confidence and style. He won the third place in the competition! Congratulations for him.



My other friends that went to the show were Dolly and Jos. We've got two aunties sitting along side us. It happened that one of the auntie's daughter was one of the finalist. But her daughter got eliminated quite quickly. The judges thought that she was too young for the adult poses. Can't disagree with them after thinking of their qualifications -,-''



The Judges were:

- Ms. Felicia Luhur (I forget her bio >..< href="http://sofyankwan.com/">Sofyan Kwan (Medan's Top Fashion Designer)

- Ms. Raline Shah (Model and Miss Indonesia 2008)

- Mr. Darwis Taniwan (Aplaus' Chief Editor)



The show was nicely organized!



But...

Yesss,, a complaint!

I don't know what's wrong with the hotel lifts! They're so sloooow! (turtle-ish slow) There are 3 guest lifts, but only 1 went up and down the 26th floor at a 15 minutes interval! *died



I was waiting for 30 minutes and there were still many other guest who wanted to go down. At last, I took the freight lift! Which was faster --'



Reached home around 8 and enjoyed a nice dinner cooked by my Mama <3 href="http://www.facebook.com/pages/Medan-Indonesia/Entrance/102968813354"> Entrance the Music Temple.



We were joining my Bro and his friends. Met some friends too. I enjoyed the music but it was kinda awkward to dance too expressively. hahahah! I'm such a shy person when it comes to people that I don't know very well, let alone dancing around! lol.



After a good time listening to the music, we left around 2.



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Hope everyone had an interesting ones too!

Cheers!

M.

Hey You

Do you notice that?

The tenderness of my soul
The endless smile on my lips when you are around

Sometimes it is amusing how my mind keep thinking about you
I don't even think of myself this much

You are such a perfect creation of God
Your kind heart
Your smile in particular
It makes me feel all warm and content.

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Dedicated to everyone who falls in love..
Life is a celebration
Be happy :)

xoxo,
M.

Beautiful Sadness

Hey Stranger

Nowadays I look at you
I feel a strange hollow in my heart.

You used to treat me like I am the center of your universe.
You used to treat me like I am such a beautiful creation.

After all that you have done, you have broken my heart.

There's nothing we can do about that now.
There's nothing I can do to change that.

Now, it feels like we are stranger to each other.
It feels like I am nothing to you.

I understand you reasons very clearly.

It's just...
Should we forget everything that we've been through?

All those times we've spent accompanying each other.
All those significant and insignificant times.
Should we throw all of those memories away?

It's so stupid to even questions that.
It's such wonderful memories, such a shame to forget all of that.

I don't want anything from you.
I don't want to go back to the past.

I know in your heart I'm not in there anymore.
As you are slowly fading in mine as well.

I hope in time
One day
You will realize that I've once really fell for you
as you had wanted me to.

Such Beautiful Memories
Love sometimes is such a
Beautiful Sadness.

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Dedicated to those who has loved but instead got their heart broken in return.
And yet still believe in love..
Celebrate your life :)

xoxo,
M.

My Chemical Romance - I Don't Love You

Listen and Download:
HERE.

Lyrics:

Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way

And after all this time that you still owe
You're still a good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out while you can

When you go would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"?

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you down and out
It's where you oughta stay

Well after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow
So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up while you can, whoa whoa

When you go would you even turn to say
"I don't love you like I did yesterday"?
Well come on, come on!

When you go would you have the guts to say
"I don't love you like I loved you yesterday"?

I don't love you like I loved you yesterday
I don't love you like I loved you yesterday

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xoxo,
M.

If Facebook Existed Years Ago.

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Disclaimer:
I don't know who created this. For sure it's not me. They belong to whoever created them.
I only share this because it's hilarious!
hahaha!

Enjoy.

xoxo,
M.